He Why won't it stop? Several months later. I was given a 'disgusted' look today by one of my very close friends when she heard what I had to say. She doesn't understand how hard it is!
I just found the words of devotion and commitment. I was astonished by just what this had come to! Nothing. No emotion, no feeling.....nothing! Pure hatred would have been better, as atleast I would have been on his mind! I try my hardest to be acknowledged, but it's like i'm invisible! A piece of shit on the floor in his words...A worthless piece of nothing that no1 cares about. The slightest connection it has to people is when others simply trample all over it....That's it!
I dispise him. His arrogance, his snide remarks, the unnecessary judgements he makes....I hate it all. Yet, he never leaves my mind! Whenever I'm in the area I'm constantly searching, for that odd chance he might just turn up. Pathetic you might say and I know it's been like 7 months, but I don't care....My existance is worthless without him back in my life!
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Love…
Fairytale marriages, food, chunky men/boys, friends, learning, performing, sports, languages, creativity, fashion, individuality, furnishings, designing, textiles, shoes, accessories, partying, Daphna’s uncle ‘Ludy’, Mr Joughin, Miss Reece, Miss Cantero, long chats, The Office, Friends, 10 Years Younger, design and property shows, everybody loves Raymond, heat (the climate, not the magazine), photography, circuits (in science), soup, the study of religion, psychology, salmon cutlets, chocolate brioche rolls, chullent, planting, music & pig wanking (HAHA).
Hates…
Stuck up people, peanut butter, cotton wool, socks rubbing against each other, rats, donuts, Jodie Marsh, Creme Eggs, people who only care about their appearance, dumb people, mint chocolate, dark chocolate, black pudding, sponge cake (birthday cake), Mr JAFFA, the cheeky girls, Scott Shear’s Spanish speaking voice, cockney rhyming slang, liver & potato koogel!